Okay so it's the last day of August! YAY I'm so glad for time flying by! I'm not really even sure what happened to August, but I don't really care either, it's over... almost into month three, nine more to go!!! goodness, crazy times!

I've been in a flump lately, my brain is running about a million miles an hour, nothing to do too really keep my self busy. I do homework and then feel like I've got hours and hours of nothingness. Going out with girlfriends does help, but nothing productive really happens out of that. I'm hoping and praying for time to fly, but looking forward it seems to stand by. I need to keep focusing on how fast these few months have gone and how fast time really does go by when I'm not focusing on it all the time. I have been out of high school for over 5 years, Cody and I have been together for almost 7 years and we have been married for over 2 years now! WOW Cody has been out of college for 2 years and we have been in Germany for almost 2 years. CRAZY!! It has been 4 months since Lana, Dwayne, Chrissy, and Travis were here and it's been almost a month since my parents and Tara were here. I've been dog sitting for almost 2 months now, which will soon be over (in a couple wks). I don't know what it is though, with me being busy and focusing on school I still feel .... I don't know. I can't explain it. It's almost like you are grieving for a death that never happened..... I feel angry, I feel sad, I feel happy, I feel confused, I feel lost, I feel lonely..... There are good times and bad and for some reason the last few day (or the last few wks) have been extra hard. It's like my brain has finally realized that Cody has been gone, going into month 3, and he isn't going to be back for 5 more months, then gone again for 3-4 and then FINALLY back home in June! I really am doing okay and I really do have more good days than bad, but I need to vent! :) I have my friends but I try to be strong for them so they can think she is doing this and so can I, so I just have to get this out at some point. My poor mom.... :) she is so great to listen to me, but she didn't answer her phone so I am releasing this onto you all :) hehe sorry! Cody I know you will read this to and I don't want you to worry, you know most of this anyways and I am doing okay... I haven't gone crazy just yet ;) hahaha

I know you all miss Cody as much as I do and I pray for you all every day! I Love you ALL and thanks for listening (reading)!

Goodness, it's been almost ten days since I've blogged. Where the heck does time go. Today I'm feeling kind of annoyed. I'm tired of the decorations in my house... I'm tired of eating out... I'm tired of shopping... I'm tired of school. I kind of feel like crawling in a whole.. screaming as loud as I can.. crawl out and start new! haha But that is not reality... I just need to go for a run and get over it.

Anyways.......

I got to skype with Cody last night :) That was great. He still looks good. It's funny talkin to him late at night though, he is so tired he just acts like a goof. Its funny. He is still really busy with work, but he is surviving it. Crazy life right now!

School is going good. I'm starting the 6th week and there are only 9 so that's looking really good. Then one more class of 9 weeks and DONE DONE DONE!!!!! I can't wait... omgoodness woohoo! I'm sick of school... o wait I already said that... hahahaha. It will be nice not to have the stress of school everyday. I'm weird with stress.. don't handle it well sometimes.. I worry a lot to... hmm I'm just all kinds of messed up lately, hahahaha.

Hope everyone is doing good! I miss you all!

well It's been a slow and boring day. Day's like these is when it seems like life is at a stand still and Cody will never be back and livin in Oklahoma again seems like never. Good things have happened today but it's cloudy, spittin rain and just cool. Nothing on TV, I have things to do but I've been on this STINKING computer for the most part. Man technology! I was annoyed at technology yesterday because I was trying to simply change my prescription. I call the clinic, get a recording thing, push some numbers and get nowhere. So I call again, push more numbers got a lady that said call back and push this number for this thing and blah blah. So I did what she said and OF COURSE it didn't work... got another recording pushed more numbers and after about an hour and a half got a lady that would help me. Where did the days go that you could call ONE phone number, get a person right off, they deal with your issue and it's done with?????? Anywho, hopefully this prescription works better and life will be better.

Still dog sitting.......

Cody called last night! We talked for almost an hour. It was really good. He actually talked about stuff which was great. Most of the time he is so overwhelmed with work that he has NO time to do anything else, and of course he can't talk about work. It was really great to hear him be himself again! :) It made my night.

It's 245 and I feel like going to bed.... grr these clouds hahaha.

Well, life is back to somewhat normal, if you could say any part of my life is normal... haha I took mom, dad, and Tara to the airport this morning.. that was hard :( I really enjoyed them being here. It was really nice having people in the house and having someone to talk to, other than the dogs, haha. I've got some of the house cleaned up, got the sheets washed just need to get them put back on the beds. I'm taking it slow today because i didn't get much sleep! I couldn't go to sleep once I got in bed and then had to wake up at 4am to get things ready, eat breakfast and get them to the airport. I only teared a little, so I did pretty good. Mom didn't cry so that helped a lot, haha. It's been raining literally ALL day so I've been stuck in the house. I guess that's good and I got homework done today to. Cody has gotten to call the past few nights in a row. He called last night and talked to mom, dad, and Tara to see how they liked Germany. I'm glad they got to talk! He is doing good, staying busy. He is hoping to get some help soon, but who knows!

Okay so some of you may remember my blog about trying to call the Vet clinic on post last month... well since my family left I went ahead and called back today to get Chloe an appointment, they answered on the first ring and asked me to come in within the hour! Plus they asked me to bring a "sample" which of course it was raining so Chloe wouldn't go potty. Luckily, since I was in a hurry this morning to get to the airport, she still had a little left out in the yard... yeah gross to talk about but anywho.... so I gathered that up and we went off to the clinic. We get there, I have a hard time finding a place to park but finally got one, and it's still pouring down rain. I grab her and run inside. Made it okay and she got us right in. The veterinarian took the "sample" to test for worms. Then she came back and was going to take blood and give Chloe two shots. WELLLLLL, Chloe whimpered and howled and just acted like she was going to be KILLED, anywho they had to get someone else to hold her down besides me... I almost started to cry, I was still emotional from family leaving, plus my baby was crying what else is a mother to do right? haha So they finally got the blood taken then the lady gave us a can of cheese for Chloe to lick on and that was the key, she got both shots and didn't even know it. The good news is everything was healthy and she looked good, bad news is she has whip worms. So we got meds for that and of course the vet talked me into getting flee and tick frontline crap, which I said she didn't need but she convinced me otherwise. So she now has heart guard (once a month), worm goop stuff 3 days.. the in 3 wks 3 more days and yeah it's confusing, anyway all that to say I dropped $140 today at the Vet's office. The more I think about that front line stuff the more it annoys me, haha. She has never had flees or ticks since we've had her, whatever! :) The Vet also said that Chloe is overweight... so I guess we need to exercise more and eat less. :)

I had a really good day on my birthday! I am now a whole 23 years old... I totally felt a change.. haha not really! I got to sleep in, mom let the dogs out :D that was a blessing in itself! No homework! We went shopping in Amberg... loved that! We got cheesy noodles YUMMO! The crappy thing is I of course got a ticket!!!! I paid for parking and everything but still got a 15 euro ticket... so about 20 bucks. POO! Anywho, then we came back and went bowling. That was the funniest thing ever to bowl with mom and dad! Tara and I just laughed and laughed! Mom baked me a birthday cake with my FAVORITE icing. Rainbow chip icing is the best icing in the whole entire world... they don't sell it here so she mailed it before they came.. awesome! We have been eating on the cake today to, there are only a few pieces left... just talking about it makes me want to go get a piece of it! Dad was getting a bit stir crazy so me and him got out and mowed the yard.. yes I know I mowed on my birthday! It's okay I enjoy it! Cody already got on to me for that.. haha He called yesterday :D He is doing good. He had to do some traveling but he is back to his FOB now and is glad to be back. It was so nice to hear from him on my Birthday! The mower pooped out on us tho so I had to finish mowing today!

Hmm... going to get cake!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! I'm super excited about today, I'm going shopping and spending time with my family! More to come :) .................

It's been a good week so far! We have been taking it pretty easy on the traveling so my parents and Tara can get some rest and get used to being here. Today we are just hanging out and enjoying the time. Dad is out on the back patio sitting in our recliner chairs.... I think he is asleep too, haha. Tara and I went to get groceries and lunch today. Mom and dad stayed at the house. It's so funny, I think they would be just fine with staying at the house all day long. That is what I do all the time so now that they are here I want to go do stuff, haha. We had Chloe's birthday party yesterday, she turned 3. She is growing up on me :( She had 3 presents and she loved all of them! She hasn't really gotten to play with the cloth toys because the other dog will tear them to pieces. Chloe is outside with her Grandpa right now, she loves Grandpa time. Grandpa is a little hesitant of her now, because the first day they got here she peed ALL over him and the couch! I don't know what the heck got into her! She NEVER EVER pees in the house and NEVER EVER EVER has she peed on anyone or on the couch! Too much excitement I guess but o my goodness that was not good. It washed out of the couch and dad got all cleaned up to so nothing was destroyed.

Cody hasn't called in a few days. He said he wouldn't be able to call over the weekend. He couldn't tell me much else so I guess he was really busy doing some kind of work. I miss him like crazy though and it's harder when he doesn't call. I'm glad my family is here to distract me from all that. :)